But something in me does, I swear
I don't remember all last year
I left you awake to cry the tears

Ben Folds Five, "Narcolepsy"
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In a 24 hour span, I've taken three cab rides, four over the past week if you want to include the trip in the Town Car. As an anecdotal note (to use a little alliteration), a cab ride from Crown & Anchor to my house costs $15, which includes a very generous tip for the cabbie. Fifteen dollars separates me from a life that I used to lead and the one I'm in now. Fifteen dollars might have saved my relationship with Heather. Fifteen dollars would have changed one innocent kid's life. It's a terrible thought. Maybe not so much terrible, just really painful. There was a moment when the cab changed lanes on Erbes, then negotiated the S-curve in front of the middle school, when I wondered if there will ever be a time when I can stop shaking my head in regret. Probably not.